an ending that lead to a new beginning

what should I do, what should I do, what should I do, what should I do...

I feel like she don't want it

Feel like eating this
“tau-hui” 豆花

Miss my girl, I really miss her alot..
Wanted to SMS her but scare that she is concerning on her exam and don't wish to disturb her. So, I didn't do anything.
Wanted to see her badly but don't know how to. So, I didn't do anything.
Wanted to go out with her but scare that she will reject. So, I didn't do anything.
Day after day, Night after night.
Hoping that not receiving any new from her, doesn't mean that this r/s is ending soon.

Really don't know what should I do?

lost one small Dino, found one big Raptor

indeed this is well said...

lost a small dino

Found a big raptor

Seeing is deceiving.
Dreaming is believing.

wow F.I.R new album
“Atlantis.”

亞特蘭提斯

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're perfect to me!

May be I should just...

I guess there isn't any point of waiting...

Just let it go...

灰色的天空 无法猜透
多余的眼泪 无法挽留
什么都牵动 感觉真的好脆弱
被呵护的人
原来不是我

我不要你走 我不想放手
却又不能够奢求
同情的温柔
你可以自由 我愿意承受
把昨天 留给我

如果这就是爱情
本来就不公平
你不需要讲理
我可以离去
如果我成全了你
如果我能祝福你
那不是我看清
是我证明 我爱你

你做了选择 对的错的
我只能承认 心是痛的
怀疑你舍得
我被伤的那么深
就放声哭了 何必再强忍

我没有选择 我不再完整
原来最后的吻 如此冰冷
你只能默认 我要被割舍
眼看着 你走了

I always think that this particular song has it meaning but I do not know about it as it is in Japanese, until today then I clear understand.....


If given a second, anyone can give up and run
So just keep on walking
There's something only you can do
So that this blue planet doesn't lose it's light
Seize the dreams you had!
Protect your beloved friends!
You can become stronger
Unknown power dwells in your heart, when its fire is lit
Any wish, it's true
Will surely be granted...show me your brave heart
Not every day is sunny, so sometimes
Even though a cold rain is falling, just open your umbrella
There's no map of how to live, that's why we're free
You can go anywhere
Run faster than the wind!
Aim farther than the skies!
You can meet a new you
Unknown courage sleeps in your heart, and when you realize
The downpour in your heart
Will surely stop...show me your brave heart
Seize the bright tomorrow!
Protect the ones you love!
You can become stronger
Break that weak self!
Destroy the walls blocking you!
The warm beat of your heart will be your weapon
Believe in your heart

See I never thought that I could walk through fire.
I never thought that I could take the burn.
I never had the strength to take it higher,
Until I reached the point of no return.

And there's just no turning back,
When your hearts under attack,
Gonna give everything I have,
It's my destiny.

Omg.. I have not blogging since like dun noe when haha.. Guess wad I'm back.. It seem like I only will start blogging when my days are turning from bad to worst. Haha.. Wadever la huh.. Anyway my life isit alway that beautiful either, I guess it fated that My life is fill with hardship. No easy way out!! Anyway that not the point. The point is from now on I will now try my best to blog everyday if possible.. haha.. Guess I will end here for now.. Stay tune

Training, training..
Why are people alway late and I alway appear to be early. I simply don't understand why?Haha..anyway weeks has pass once again. Nevermind...
Initial I should be going for my orientation camp, but no calls from them. Meaning, I got rejected. Wah!! I have been packing my bag for this camp for days, there isn't any calls and I end up rejected. What the @*#! ? Haha..Nevertheless, I didn't spend my weeks un-meaningful. I went for a movie night despicable me on monday, bowling on a tuesday night, Night Safari on wednesday night, accompany my girlfriend on thursday, sleep the whole day for friday and movie night again, The Sorcerers' Apprentice and on saturday.
Wah seh, how I wish every week could be this fruitful. Haha..

Working toward another meaningful week. :D

Wavin' Flag lyrics
Songwriters: Lawrence, Phillip; Mars, Bruno; Warsame, Keinan;
When I get older I will be stronger
They'll call me freedom, just like a wavin' flag

When I get older, I will be stronger
They'll call me freedom just like a wavin' flag
And then it goes back, and then it goes back
And then it goes back, oh

Born to a throne, stronger than Rome
A violent prone, poor people zone
But it's my home, all I have known
Where I got grown, streets we would roam

Out of the darkness, I came the farthest
Among the hardest survival
Learn from these streets, it can be bleak
Accept no defeat, surrender, retreat

So we struggling, fighting to eat
And we wondering when we'll be free
So we patiently wait for that fateful day
It's not far away, but for now we say

When I get older I will be stronger
They'll call me freedom just like a wavin' flag
And then it goes back, and then it goes back
And then it goes back, oh

So many wars, settling scores
Bringing us promises, leaving us poor
I heard them say 'love is the way'
'Love is the answer,' that's what they say

But look how they treat us, make us believers
We fight their battles, then they deceive us
Try to control us, they couldn't hold us
'Cause we just move forward like Buffalo Soldiers

But we struggling, fighting to eat
And we wondering, when we'll be free
So we patiently wait for that faithful day
It's not far away but for now we say

When I get older I will be stronger
They'll call me freedom just like a wavin' flag
And then it goes back, and then it goes back
And then it goes back, and then is goes

When I get older I will be stronger
They'll call me freedom just like a wavin' flag
And then it goes back, and then it goes back
And then it goes back, and then it goes
And then it goes

And everybody will be singing it
And you and I will be singing it
And we all will be singing it

When I get older I will be stronger
They'll call me freedom just like a wavin' flag
And then it goes back, and then it goes back
And then it goes back, and then it goes

When I get older I will be stronger
They'll call me freedom just like a wavin' flag
And then it goes back, and then it goes back
And then it goes back, oh

When I get older, when I get older
I will be stronger just like a wavin' flag
Just like a wavin' flag, just like a wavin' flag
Flag, flag, just like a wavin' flag

these lyrics are submitted by aLeXuS
these lyrics are last corrected by Sun Inc.

I seriously don't know what i say. Sad? Angry? I really do not know which is the right feeling, it more of a mix feeling.
I'm not sad until as if I will drop down and cry nor I'm angry till I feel like slapping someone on the face. My orientation camp is in two day away and I had already pack my stuff, got the items that I had required to buy. Cracking my head thinking what are the thing to bring, etc. Now I receive a email saying I am on a waiting list. I thought I could get to know some senior of my course so that when I need help I can get from them. But, everything turn back to square one.
Well I guess I have to work out a new plans.
Bright future a heads!!!

It another sunday, a day which I use to hate it alot, but now my average sunday's have change. Every morning I have to wake up at 7.30, have my breakfast then make my way school for my training. Althought, the training only last for the whole morning it makes my life makes my life more meaningful. It used to a be a montones sunday, going my parent's house wasting alot of time doing nothing at all. Follow by dinner then book-in. OMG!! Seriously, I don't think anything can take it and I had made it throught for two year...shark! Don't ask me how I do it, cause I don't even know about it. Let don't talk about this anymore. It over, no more book-in, cause I had ORD-ed!! Oop!! Haha..
Working toward for a better life every single day.

It friday!!!

Finally, but should I go out today??

Hey hey hey...
It really has been a while since I last blog. Don't ask me why have I stop for so long and now I'm back blogging once again. The reason would be almost the same as what other would do when they has a blog of their own. It a trend, lol!!

Everything happening in my life seem to be have change. There are some which got worst, don't really know what the hack happen. There are some which I thought I would be better if there a change, however it does not. It seem weird at first, but slowly I'm getting used to it. There are also changes that makes me recall of what has happen in the past and it worth to be kept in the mind. I seriously miss those days.
Nevertheless, I do look forward for my new start to pursuit for my degree. Kind of worry too, worry that I would not do well. Anyway I will try my very best to do it well. ;)

MY NEW GUITAR... :D

Riddle me this...Riddle me that...

Who's afraid of the big bad man...

OMG!!

Once again...I'm shopping alone...

Ha-ha! Weird right? OK lar...Not the first time lei...

Kinda feel alright...Moveover I'm looking forward for more...

I nid to get a guitar

I come, I go, I disappear

Now u see me...

Now u dun...

恋爱就像选糖 别再眼盲
睁大眼光 别轻易投降
好看的包装 不一定高尚
打开再欣赏 有没有中奖

别担心 勇敢去尝
每一颗 都有希望
没有人不会受伤
选对糖 让你闪闪发亮

闪亮钻石糖 是甜蜜的梦想
我们都在想像 快乐的配方
闪亮钻石糖 有幸福的光芒;
当对的人出场 会散发那道光

他有没有肩膀 会不会是软糖
热情是否够长 温暖着心房
赏味期等待 保存期收藏
爱的理想对象 掌握在自己手上
幸福掌握在你手上
失恋就像苦糖 试吃没保障
酸甜苦辣 敢试就要坚强
热恋像蜜糖 钻漾的光芒
谁都别想抢 要风靡全场

我不想 生活总好像 被寂寞搞得绝望
我期待遇到那真爱 带我旅行四方
爱的一个秘方 就要勇敢去爱

I wanna buy toy

BACK TO SQUARE ONE!!!

Everything seems to be much quieter without the present of you

Who is the one in ur mind now?

I wait and waited, Till I fall a sleep..

Why Am I So Weak

一天一夜没有未接来电
每次接起来却都只是幻觉
好像你的简讯有去无回
在搞什么鬼
我像迷了路的孤魂野鬼
半夜三点钟还梦游在茶街
狠狠被击败的孤独败类
人格快分裂
不要一直把我当小鬼
我流的不只有冷血
我也有我致命的死穴
别以为我无所谓
鬼打墙的越打越强的我的心脏
这一秒突然你整个美丽
那一种痛 痛起来要人命
只有你能让我呼吸
鬼打墙的拚命拚命拚命的找你
到哪里都杠上铜墙铁壁
没想到你跟我来硬碰硬
一出手就活活被我 一枪毙命
一天一夜没有未接来电
每次接起来却都只是幻觉
好像你的简讯有去无回
在搞什么鬼
我像迷了路的孤魂野鬼
半夜三点钟还梦游在茶街
狠狠被击败的孤独败类
人格快分裂
不要一直把我当小鬼
我流的不只有冷血
我也有我致命的死穴
别以为我无所谓
鬼打墙的越打越强的我的心脏
这一秒突然你整个美丽
那一种痛 痛起来要人命
只有你能让我呼吸
鬼打墙的拚命拚命拚命的找你
到哪里都杠上铜墙铁壁
没想到你跟我来硬碰硬
一出手就活活被我 一枪毙命
鬼打墙的越打越强的我的心脏
这一秒突然你整个美丽
那一种痛 痛起来要人命
只有你能让我呼吸
鬼打墙的拚命拚命拚命的找你
到哪里都杠上铜墙铁壁
自以为没有什么搞不定
没料到这一次栽在你手掌心

I am really lost, please show me some sign...any sign....hint anything...As long as it can be use to guide me will do...

I think I really blew it, this time...

Wad shld I do next?

Totally lost...

Can someone guide me pls?

Valentine's Day and Happy Chinese New Year...

You ready?! Lets go!
Yeah, for those of you that want to know what we're all about
It's like this y'all


This is ten percent luck, twenty percent skill
Fifteen percent concentrated power of will
Five percent pleasure, fifty percent pain
And a hundred percent reason to remember the name!

He doesn't need his name up in lights
He just wants to be heard whether it's the beat or the mic
He feels so unlike everybody else, alone
In spite of the fact that some people still think that they know him
But fuck em, he knows the code
It's not about the salary
It's all about reality and making some noise
Makin the story - makin sure his clique stays up
That means when he puts it down Tak's pickin it up! let's go!

Who the hell is he anyway?
He never really talks much
Never concerned with status but still leavin them star struck
Humbled through opportunities given to him despite the fact
That many misjudge him because he makes a livin from writin raps
Put it together himself, now the picture connects
Never askin for someone's help, to get some respect
He's only focused on what he wrote, his will is beyond reach
And now when it all unfolds, the skill of an artist

It's just twenty percent skill
Eighty percent fear
Be one hundred percent clear cause Ryu is ill
Who would've thought that he'd be the one to set the west in flames
And I heard him wreckin with The Crystal Method, "Name Of The Game"
Came back dropped Megadef, took em to church
I like bleach man, why you have the stupidest verse?
This dude is the truth, now everybody be givin him guest spots
His stock's through the roof I heard he fuckin with S. Dot!

WORST DAY OF ALL..

but still I nid to thnk someone...

someone who made my day today... :)

Today went out watched both of this movie.

haha...movie marathon..

I think <聽說> this film though the comment wasn't very good, but I find it very nice as compare to "it's complicated". It a must watch film man. Hope I can find that song man.

骑士精神

当我看见左肩破损的战衣
盔甲后的你表情带著笑意
想要对我说
外来的袭击即将离公主远去
那些令人刺耳的声音我不听我不听
偏偏我又容易受影响容易伤心
没有用微笑的表面不停骗自己
他们的语气好笑的攻击自卑的心理
四年来带著各种面具想让你我孤立
莫名其妙那些话语
莫名其妙那些话语
如同沙子掉进眼里不用哭泣
莫名其妙那些话语
莫名其妙那些话语
不如下档电影值得注意
我不要王子苦苦守候的故事
梦幻不实我不希望你是王子
因为瑰影童话结局为战而死
故事开端结局会因你而真实

像骑士的忠贞
不畏惧邪恶的眼神
这过程一直放在我心底就像
挡在你胸前的盔甲
保护著我让我心疼
骑士们发挥出你们的精神
就这样强悍的骑士撑到最后
骄傲的公主的要回家整装再出发

RAT LOVE BIG RICE?
老鼠爱大米

Something is really wrong.
Something has to be changed.

RIGHT NOW!!

so the first time I don't feel like going home....

you should go out more often, 22 year old le...still staying at home...

like a kid...

you should go out make more friends...
-.-

HOW DO U NOE TT I WOULDN'T WANT TO GO OUT IF I HAF A CHOICE,

IT NOT I DUN WAN TO MAKE MORE FRIENDS, IT THEY DO NOT WAN ME AS A FRIEND

UNDERSTAND!!!

U STUPID OLD LADY!

WHY SO SERIOUS?

Run, Run~ Run!!!!!!!

choing ar~

oh-no~

I totally forgotten what I want to write...

I was full of thought throughout this week, thought of writing them all there...

But 我忘到完了...

hai....

Never mind, no matter what I should just stay happy!! :)

sleep sleep sleep..

all I know is sleep...

I should have been going out today....

But in the end I just slept once again...

Hopeless...I wonder...

When will I change or will I ever change?

It a weekend you know...

It another weekend burn...

If you wander off too far,

If you follow the wrong star,
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
If the bright lights blinds your eyes,
If your troubles break your stride,

If you ever feel ashamed,
When there’s only you to blame,
get back on your feet and think of me,

cos my love will get you home.

There are tons and tons of stuff in my mind.

Seriously, I do not know where to start.

Good, Bad, Kindness, Betrayal are all in my mind.

Nightmare seem to be getting more commons in my dreams.

Happiness are no longer existed.

How I wish, I wish...

I'm still looking for you,

where are you? Stop hidding,

will you please appear in my life,

soon?

Positive Feeling...
I always feel that I'm looking forward for something to happen…
Something which is good that will be going to happen in my life…
However, that is not always the truth as compare to what always has happen in my life…
So, what is the good feeling that I'm looking for?

I don't really feels, like what I usually feel it is..

IPPT: Silver

I got to seriously admit that I am getting old le...When I took my IPPT test, I'm kind of not being able to perform to the fullest. There seems to be some resistance that it pulling me back from doing so. I do not know what. It could be lack of training, I don't know. I can't jump as far as I used to for my SBJ. I can't run as fast as I used to for my shutter run. Chin-Up, doesn't improve much still the same. I aways feels that I can do more, but there is just some resistant that stop me from doing so. As for the 2.4km run, is the only station that I have improve on. Not very sure of the timing, but I could say that I have improve. From 11min 30+sec to 10min and don't know how many seconds. haha...Oop! Right after my IPPT I went back for my familiarization driving. God! My legs are aching man and that doesn't end my day. Part two was doing guard-duty. Not regimental but replacing someone. Kind of last minute thing. Up coming Monday I would be doing another duty. SIAN~~ Anyway after this coming Monday duty that would be the end of my this month duty. SHOIK! I guess that all I wants to say... BYE!!!!!!!

出 Stunt!!

Thinking... Recalling...

Suddenly I thought of those days back at tekong...One year ago, I was just newly posted to Sispec..Life has change since I have step into army...There are ups and downs period...No matter it Good or bad, time will still pass...Loving it, or simply just hate it, I still have to go throught...Now I'm just glad in about 7 more month I'll be going to ORD...7 more months

Book-out lor...but I ain't happy at all.
Bored, super bored, dam bored.
Recently, I have been watching channel 8 tv drama. A 9pm show called "Heart Of Greed's" which is also known as 溏心風暴 the chinese name for it. In this show whenever it is showing the part where the female actress name '常在心', while the male actor 'Afreld', their background music play will alway play this song called: "my love will get you home". It super nice (I have added the link so if you wants to hear it, just click the title of the song). There seem to have tons of identical thing that was shown in the show (if you happen to watch it) speaks the feel of what I am currently feeling now. Every since words, in addition, the female actress do look like the girl whom I like.
Sad, less than an hour time I'll be book-in again. Guard-duty! WAH~~~

When she's in a bad mood, I can't even help to make her happy...

I tried many ways to think but I just can't think of ways to help her...

Feel very bad, Confuse, 心情乱七八糟...

What should I do?

Finally OFF day...

Haha... Tired, damm tired..

Stupid AOH really shag me up.

Throughout this OpenHouse which last for about 4 days and we had work for three week. In these three shit week is all about moving props, rubber tire or rim for salon vehicle, collecting ration and all kind of shit that no one could ever think of.

Super glad that it over... Everything is over.

Back to FLB's life.

Miss the morning run. Willie needs more long distance run.

Day after days... Night after nights... Week after weeks..
If you were to ask me, what is the feeling of doing the same thing over and over again...
I can tell you that, the feel would be the same. There wouldn't be any different.

On the 16 Aug, I finally completed my 21KM Half Army Marathon Run.I completed in 2hr and 16min, if I were to complete within 2hr 15min I would get 2days off. Wah! sad sia.. Don't care I must try to convince my PC to get my 2day off... Wahahaha....

On the 27 Aug, I had my ATP. Cheese-Bun, during my practice. I got 26 out of 36, 2 point away from marksman badges and 200dollar. On the actual day, I failed. Wah! Can you believe it? All my figure 15 all I miss. Miss! Miss and more miss until I fail. Wah-liew. Suck thumb have to retake, result 25 of 36. Hai... Bo money, bo badge. Downn!!

Recently, Busy lo... everyday go PLC. All the endless Siakan. Hai...No wonder they say 3rd sergeant are first class man. I have to admit that that is sooo true... Suck thumb lor...

Hai... I wanna be happy...

我不是一定要你回来

只是当又把回忆翻开

除了你之外的空白

还有谁能来教我爱

Bad news, Bad news...
The Half Army Marathon, I will be doing my GUARD-DUTY. Sad all my effort has gone to the wasted. :'( All the await, All the plans. All gone, 彩虹消失在一瞬间. Huh! All my training. Really do not know what to say. Si Bei Sad ar... Just was talking about it to my buddy in the morning that what if it happens that either of us kanna guard-duty on that Half Army Marathon all the effort that we have put in, in our training will all gone to waste. Then right before we book-out we found that my buddy guard-duty was the day before me, while mine was on the dot the day that we are running the Half Army Marathon. haiz...... I guess in my life there will only be once that I'll be runnign in a marathon and now I can't even run. SAD!!!!!

14km? wad is 14 I have completed 16Km... Haha... I can't believe that I have completed 16Km. It was indeed a fun run, though the journey was dam long. Thought of giving up but I didn't. Haha.. (累不累~~ 作一场冒险的表演 走过千秋万岁　寂寞的云烟 下雨天　没有地点可以搁浅.) Can't really even see the finishing line but I still made it. Met quite a few old friends in the past courses we attended together. Haha... You can really see the shagginess in the face. Haha... Right after the run, I went for the free massage. I was indeed SHOIK AR!!. That stupid funny massager still ask how I get my leg tone until so nice. DOT!!! Have being running lei... Of course the leg will tone nicely lar... Stupid question. Anyway it was a fun run. I really enjoyed my run. Can't wait for the 21KM Half Army Marathon to come.

One year lor...

One year soldier lor...

100708, is the date I enlist...

100709, is the date that I will receive my pay and doing guard-duty till tomorrow morning...

wah-seh! What a coincident. I didn't even know it when I know that date of my guard-duty. 10 JULY, sounded so familiar. It kept making be to think about it. 10 JULY. what the hell happen on 10 JULY I kept thinking. Till my buddy told be about one year soldier. Then I know. To be truthful, I can't really believe that I have really been through one year of my life in army. OMG! In addition, today I also complete my very first 14KM run, the longest distance I ever run in my life. Timing still could manage is squeeze within 1hr 30min. Ha-ha... I know it slow lar.. Slow run man, I'm not siao on lei... Run like one crazy dogs. Next week it 16KM, die ar!! One year past, one year of memories in army. Willie, 10 more month to go, 10 more month to ORD!!!

-PAST-

-3rd SERGENT lor-

我爱谁 跨不过 从来也不觉得错
自以为 抓著痛 总会修成爱的果
偏执相信著 受诅咒的水晶球
阻挡可能心动的理由

而你却 靠近了 逼我们视线交错
原地不动 或向前走 突然在意这分钟
眼前荒沙弥漫了等候
耳边传来孱弱的呼救
追赶要我爱的不保留

我身骑白马 走三关
我改换素衣 过中原
放下西凉没人管
我一心只想王宝钏

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what?s waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

你的眼睛　蓝色的一面海
总是太安静　像是会有暴风雨
呼唤一个夏季　也许那天都逝去
海面闪着泪　像梦境

你的眼睛　闪烁的一面海
平静地叹息　洒了一片碎玻璃
穿过一座岛屿　也许那天都死去
海浪都沉默　累不累~

作一场冒险的表演
走过千秋万岁　寂寞的云烟
下雨天　没有地点可以搁浅
拍一张分别的纪念
努力远走高飞　失眠的海面 
地平线　彩虹消失在一瞬间


其实从头到尾　谁又得到了水仙
其实从头到尾　走了错误的航线
让海水都没去你我的脸　闭上眼
回到原点　一个语言两个世界

作一场冒险的表演
走过千秋万岁　寂寞的云烟
下雨天　没有地点可以搁浅
拍一张分别的纪念
努力远走高飞　失眠的海面
地平线　彩虹消失在一瞬间

你常常说 我很完美
没人能取代 我给的一切
我就以为 我努力更完美
我们 就会永远
完美并不美 我们多虚伪
你让我的好 变成一种罪
完美并不美 当你爱了谁
我的完美也只是 不完美

後来你说 我太完美
值得更好的 陪在我身边
你不是我 你怎么能体会
你有 多么珍贵
完美并不美 我们多虚伪
你让我的好 变成一种罪
完美并不美 当你爱了谁
我的完美也只是 不完美

完美并不美 我们多虚伪
你让我的好 变成一种罪
完美并不美 当你爱了谁
我的完美成了罪

完美并不美 我们多虚伪
你让我的好 变成一种罪
完美并不美 当你爱了谁
我的完美也只是 不完美

我要快乐。。。

Yoz yoz yoz...
What have I being doing man, you might ask.
Training lor...I guess..
More and more responsibility are coming in. It like a never ending stories.
I wonder if I could cope. Yes I can, trying to be positive.
Being the best out of the worst is the best I can do.
The facts is that I am alway being the worst, maybe all I can do is at least try to be the best out of the worst.
DO MY BEST!

whenever these song is being played over the air.
it always reminds me of you.


would it be good if we were to remain as friend?
or
a one step forward as a couple?


do I really need you like just like the superman who need the sun to survive?
it has been days we have not being contacting each other.
what is happening between us ?
will there be a day that you will ever think of me?
I wonder...

If there a day..

just that particular day that you will think of me..

you really got to tell me..

I guess, today will be the day that I will never forget...

Finally..I pass my TP...wooootttt....

I thought I would have fail, but I didn't. I made it through. WOW!

Willie Bolei! Willie Bolei!

You all won't know how down I was yesterday, but today. SA-KA-LIAO

Saturday is my Island-Wide, die.

Need to hit 100KM for both rover and tonner.

Which mean I have to drive for hours and hours.

OMG!!!

Guess guess guess...

Guess who I met today...

Chio-bu lei...

lolx... It someone who I know...

Has been a while I didn see her...

But who know that I met her.... wooott...

POP loh.. 250209
haha...

Finally this days really comes.
Training for the parade was siong ar... Image that you trained in the rain and you got tan. Weird right? This show that how strong the UV rays are. What makes it worst is it rain dueing our actual parade. Wah liew ai... Luckily it stop just right before the time when my parent can come forward to put on the chevrons for me. haha.. What make the parade a memorable was the rainbow that we right behind of us. Cool right. OMG! It not only one but two lehx... haha...

There are some of the photo enjoy sorry about the two rainbow it not inside pity right haha...

It has been a while that I did not go out with my poly friend.
But today, I went out with them to celebrate Farah's birthday. There are Nurul, Fariz, HuiWen, Farah cousins, sister and her some other friends. I'm kinda stupid, didn't know that it a surprise party for Farah and I say Hi to her. which i suppose not to. We went to Minds Cafe, have a little touch up on what are they doing. It is mend to be fun but it turn out to be kind of boring because most of them are Malay and only me and HuiWen are the only Chinese, the rest of the Chinese all have their stupid reason for not attending... -.- What makes it worst was Fariz and Nurul, they are no longer couple. They are back to friend friend kind of relationship. Just happens that me and HuiWen are between them. So it normal that we will feel kinda of weird in between them, so we just start chatting with each other. SAD. They used to be a lovely couple, but then they do not have time to spent with each other, things change. So is it true that when guys are going into NS, it better not to be involve in relationship? After the celebration Me and HuiWen took a ride home together, don't think too far. We are going home together is because we are staying quite close to each other so we are going home together and not I'm sending her home, wrong thinking lei... But being truthful, I alway feel that after chatting with her, I felt happier then usual. Maybe it because I have someone whom I can share my life with. I really hope we could have more, as a friend to friend chats. :)

Time really flies...
Course finally come to an end, so happy. Haha...
This week was one of the most siong week in FLB(Fun Loving Boys).
Construction, camouflage, deployment really is a pain. Nevertheless I glad that I have made it through. All thank to all my pioneer. I couldn't have done well without you guys, Thank you guys. Up coming weeks I would be going back to ETI then driving school. No worry, I'll be back at around May, and once again I'll bring joy to you all. haha...
With pride I will lead.

海的思念绵延不绝
终于和天在地平线交会
爱如果走得够远
应该也会跟幸福相见

承诺常常很像蝴蝶
美丽的飞盘旋然后不见
但我相信你给我的誓言
就像一定会来的春天

我始终带着你爱的微笑
一路上寻找我遗失的美好
不小心当泪滑过嘴角
就用你握过的手抹掉

再多的风景也从不停靠
只一心寻找我遗失的美好
有的人说不清哪里好
但就是谁都替代不了

在最开始的那一秒有些事早已经注定要到老
虽然命运爱开玩笑真心会和真心遇到

Is anyone enjoying in army? I doubt so.
Nobody likes to talk about army once they enter in the army, but still their conversation are all about army. Trying to hide, trying to giving lot of excuses, trying to make himself happy, but in his heart, he knows whatever he think was a liar to himself.

Yesterday, I went back to RP, for the Chingay performance at night, didn't get a chance to go on Friday, because my book-out timing was too late. Sad. Tons of thing did happen in my club, could see that my junior are changing, they are growing up, almost all found their partners but for the rest who don't. JiaYou lei. You guys will find one soon, too... Could see that there are improvement in their performance. Anyway, during the Chingay performance I got a very bad injury. Now, all the joints that I have, are have cracking sounds. Even with a small movement a crack sound can be hear. Especially my right shoulder, it hurt. God this coming weeks I'm going to have my SOC test. How I am going to pass. (ZZZZZ) Should I go see the MO? (hmmm...) Sian... this coming Saturday I would be having my gaurd duty. Which mean I cannot enjoy my weekends. :( Haiyo! sian sian sian! It ok, it alright, two more weeks and one day, it would be the end of my specializing phrase. Here comes my class 3, 4, & 5. YEAH!

MISTAKE,
I make tons of mistake,
So many that I can't even account for it,
There are time where I fall,
I did manage to pull myself through,
And I did learn from my mistake,
But how long can I last?
I don't know...

下一個雨帶 夏天傍晚 我都毀虧 唱歌的踹 嘿
把心情都吵醒 月光甩啦很涼快 就是這樣回憶起來
第一次告白 You gotta wall I can

我裝了很這些等你機械 很可愛 你說活在明天活在期待
不如活著今天的人在 我說我懂了楔ㄦ太快
未來你一定要展開 第一天我存在 第一次呼吸暢快

站在地上的腳踝 因為你而有真實感 第一天我存在
第一次浪漫去愛 愛是騰空的魔幻 第一天的純真色彩
它總是永遠那麼燦爛

你很搞笑你很奇怪 你頭髮很亂 有的時候
你突楓飢琲漕 變得很勇敢 怎麼說來很不單純

你陪我看海 還那麼來 我又好像 不應該把你想得有點壞
壞的是我發現不知不覺 不見到你不是很習慣
你的眼神裡好像也期待 期待不一樣的未來

第一天我存在 第一次呼吸暢快 站在地上的腳踝
因為你而有真實感 第一天我存在 第一次浪漫去愛

愛是騰空的魔幻 第一天的純真色彩 它總是永遠那麼燦爛
藍色的海 海上的魚 應了那段 不轉彎 那未來

你說活在明天活在期待 不如活在今天的自在
我說我懂了楔ㄦ太快 未來你一定要展開

第一天我存在 第一次呼吸暢快 站在地上的腳踝
因為你而有真實感 第一天我存在 第一次浪漫去愛
愛是騰空的魔幻 第一天的純真色彩 它總是永遠那麼燦爛

永遠那麼燦爛 永遠那麼燦爛
First day first day
First day first day
First day
Today every day first day

约定

说好的三年不见面用我们的爱把时间留住
你笑着说这是我们的考验我们的约定
就这样三年又过了我还是回到这个地方
闭上眼等你的出现，空气中吻你的脸
我还记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了
我还记得我们那时的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
连那风都笑我了
我想他会告诉你的我更爱你了。。
你会记得我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
听着风我也笑了
他一定会告诉你的我更爱你了。。。。

what is your, it is your

what is not your, it is not your...

so it better not to think of ways to get it...

Days in FLB still remain unchanged. I still don't seem to be remembering thing. Even my personal stuff. Aiyo! 失败! lehx! God!
Weekends are changing, from going out to staying at home. My parent keep enforcing, and wants me to go out. Meet up with friend, get a life. But all I can think of is after one week of constructing both my mind and body so tired that all I wan is to stay at home. Watch TV, cartoons will be good, play game or some other thing. There are just too many thing that I had plan to do at home are still undone and has been postpone to another week, if this goes on it will never end. Staying at home isn't boring, it "休息是为了走根长的路". LOLx... Chim ritez! I learn it from a friend of mine. Ha-ha... Get a life, I'll try. Upcoming week of construction would be at the transit gap, in addition I'm the IC of the week OMG, more stress is coming in. But, I have rest enough and I'm ready for it, just bring it man.

I dreamt of u again,

lying down on my shoulder,

hugging my arms.

R u the one?

Or it just only a dream

My Own shadow

Today was a memorable day, I thought that I shouldn't be going there because there someone whom I used to love was there. Sounded abit childish, butthis is how I feel. I never ever told this to her before, as I thought a guys like me, does not suit her at all. In the past, our friend like to make fun of us. Saying we are like couple the thing that we do the place we go, we are always togther, there are other friend around us, but it appear that we look like couple. How I wish that she is my GF but she's not. There is also once that she was so angry that she scolded the person whom was making fun of us, she spoke out loud that we are impossible. I was glad that I did not spoke out that I like her. If not I would have hurt more. That was like about two year ago, and we have kept a distance from each other. Today, one of her friend made fun of her once again... She didn't reacted much but I was worried that her got angry so I took one step back, so as to create a misunderstanding. And now I'm at home I wathing this show. It happen that the story line was just like mine. OMG, but the ending is different lar... haha...
hmmm....
Now I'm just thinking.... and kinda worried...
Should I or Shouldn't I?

010109

The first day of the year, I'm spending it not doing anything, but doing guard duties. Might sound quite sian 1/2... but it regimental so bo bian lar...
To be truthful, this guard duty that I have was quite interesting. My prodding was at 12pm hot sun, god really this really can kill someone man. It not tiring, but I’m just being exhausted by the heat. Next duty was after dinner, my buddy and I walk so fast just to rush back watch 心花朵朵开 and we did made it just in time. Lolx. Midnight duty was the most interesting, I got chase by three dogs during my duty. Wooott.. No worry, my buddy and I weren’t hurt. How did it happen, I also don't know. It just happens very fast, I was just only thinking about would I encounter/chase/attack by a dog and then it just happen. Not One but three dogs. My buddy and I were walking toward our checkpoint, sudden we heard dog barking. Initially, I thought there are only two dogs which were like just playing and chasing each other so we don't intend to disturb. However, they are not, they are running toward our direction. And these two dogs are calling for backup. From two and now it becomes three. OMG!! During that point of time all we could think of is, don’t run, stand still and nothing will happen, and we did. The dogs did come to a hault but it was just right beside my buddy and it keeps barking and barking. We do not know what to do, maybe if we turn around and walk away from it, it would stop. As when we turn around and walk away it run toward us again. Dotz! The whole area was cover by all the barking so it decide to carm them down by just doing shhh.. and shhh... It works. Not only it succeeds, the dogs turn and run away. WHAO! Amazing! Haha! We reported back and inform the guard com. that we are unable to get to the checkpoint. We were told to skip the checkpoint and carry on. Yeah! Lolx! The following day, my duty was to check the vehicles from entering the camp. Got scolded for no reason by the drive, but I am just too tired to care about him. haha~! Dam shag!
Fatigued level: 90%

Brain functioning level: 10%

Overall: 100%(cannot work and think)

LOLX

What a new year to start with...

What an experience

New year Resolutions is to get a GF. ;)

一个像夏天一个像秋天

第一次見面看妳 不太順眼 誰知道後來關係 那麼密切
我們一個像夏天 一個像秋天 卻總能把 冬天變成了春天

妳拖我離開一場 愛的風雪 我揹妳逃出一次 夢的斷裂
遇見一個人然後 生命全改變 原來不是 戀愛才有的情節

如果不是妳 我不會相信 朋友比情人還死心塌地
就算我忙戀愛 把妳冷凍結冰 妳也不會恨我 只是罵我幾句

如果不是妳 我不會確定 朋友比情人更懂得傾聽
我的絃外之音 我的有口無心 我離不開Darling 更離不開妳


妳拖我離開一場 愛的風雪 我揹妳逃出一次 夢的斷裂
遇見一個人然後 生命全改變 原來不是 戀愛才有的情節

如果不是妳 我不會相信 朋友比情人還死心塌地
就算我忙戀愛 把妳冷凍結冰 妳也不會恨我 只是罵我幾句

如果不是妳 我不會確定 朋友比情人更懂得傾聽
我的絃外之音 我的有口無心 我離不開Darling 更離不開妳

妳了解我所有 得意的東西 才常潑我冷水怕我忘形
妳知道我所有 丟臉的事情 卻為我的美好形象保密

如果不是妳 我不會相信 朋友比情人還死心塌地
就算我忙戀愛 把妳冷凍結冰 妳也不會恨我 只是罵我幾句

如果不是妳 我不會確定 朋友比情人更懂得傾聽
我的絃外之音 我的有口無心 我離不開Darling 更離不開妳

woo woo ~ ~ woo woo ~ ~ ya ya ~ ~

Poor Memory

Simply just do not understand why, my memory is getting weaker and weaker. I am not being able to remember thing as good as in the past. WHY, I do not know. I wish I would know why too, but this annoyed me a lot. Imagine that you have tons of things to remember, but you just can’t remember it, till it too late. Sometime I would stare in the blues, thinking that there are thing that I have forgotten to do but I just can’t think of it. When I was far away from it, then I would remember. This just can’t go on, if it does, I really do not know what to say.

I wan a better life!!

Guess what guess what...
haha..


This year Christmas, I'm counting down in the toilet!
haha..
sorry lar.. people got bad stomachache lar...


Anyway same old shit again, there are so many things I want to say but I don't think I could list them all out. Days in training are full of downs than ups. Kanna F*** until like don’t know who the hell am I. However, I still manage to pull myself through. If you don’t get any scolding then that might be something wrong somewhere. Through the scolding I did manage to learn some of my mistake. Yes indeed I am learning. But, :( there are just too many things to learn. I have to admit that I am a stupidly slow learner. I am willing to learn if they were to have patient with me. Apologise if I really boil your blood. Haha..
Each and everyday, my days seem to be very down, however, it turn out to be still alright. There are times where I think my day will be fruity but it turns out to be very bad. What to do, anyway I am booking in soon; and about roughly this time I will book out again tomorrow. Shiok sia!!
Haha.. Tomorrow SOC! Happy or sad I do not know?
Perhaps I’ll tell the next time. ;)

Do my best 把夢實現 走到海的最遙遠
就把時間化成永遠 找尋新的體驗
Do my best 當成信念 航向天的那一邊
拼著地圖 我能找到 心中那座 美麗樂園

眼泪笑了

比想像中更痛　你真的沒回頭
我命令眼淚不許失控
回憶不跟你走　都積在我心中
我就有責任讓它值得被珍重

謝謝你曾讓我難過　謝謝我沒有想太多
當愛情左盼右顧的時候

我眼淚都笑了　誰還想哭呢
再勇敢地站著　找回光和熱
面對你的時候　我不會捨不得
因為你已是過客　因為路有些曲折　是美的

心碎成了沙漠　就快開鑿綠洲
我沒有時間不知所措
你溫柔的雙手　本就不屬於我
又何必在乎它以後屬於誰呢

謝謝你曾讓我難過　謝謝我沒有想太多
當愛情左盼右顧的時候

我眼淚都笑了　誰還想哭呢
再勇敢地站著　找回光和熱
面對你的時候　我不會捨不得
因為你已是過客　因為路有些曲折　是美的

我眼淚都笑了　誰還會哭呢
來不及完美的　就唱首驪歌
想起你的時候　我不是卑微的
然而我沒有遺憾　因為我已愛過你　深深的

Next phase…

4 week of basic has come to an end, to be truthful.
There a feeling of not to leave my stuffy and smelly bunk while I was packing my stuff to my newly allocate bunk.
I am going to miss my session mate. Yes I will!

The start of next new 8 week would be my advance and specialize.
I wonder, would this upcoming phase be an easy and smooth going which I would look forward to or “Shiong” which I would not always want in my life, NEVER!!.

The FIVE out of the hundreds, the one and only LUCKY FIVE lifes continues…

Lyrics | Coldplay lyrics - Viva La Vida lyrics

對這個世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢繼續往前走
為什麼人要這麼的脆弱 墮落
請你打開電視看看
多少人為生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我們是不是該知足
珍惜一切 就算沒有擁有

還記得你說家是唯一的城堡 隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑
微微笑 小時候的夢我知道
不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑 鄉間的歌謠永遠的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好

不要這麼容易就想放棄 就像我說的
追不到的夢想 換個夢不就得了
為自己的人生鮮艷上色 先把愛塗上喜歡的顏色
笑一個吧 功成名就不是目的
讓自己快樂快樂這才叫做意義
童年的紙飛機 現在終於飛回我手裡
所謂的那快樂 赤腳在田裡追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂給叮到怕了 誰在偷笑呢
我靠著稻草人吹著風唱著歌睡著了
哦 哦 午後吉它在蟲鳴中更清脆
哦 哦 陽光灑在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切 就算沒有擁有

還記得你說家是唯一的城堡 隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑
微微笑 小時候的夢我知道
不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑 鄉間的歌謠永遠的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好

還記得你說家是唯一的城堡 隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑
微微笑 小時候的夢我知道
不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑 鄉間的歌謠永遠的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好

教室里那台风琴
叮咚叮咚叮嚀
像你告白的声音
动作一直很轻
微笑看你送完信
转身离开的背影
喜欢你字跡清秀的关心

那温热的牛奶瓶在我手中握紧
有你在的地方我总感觉很窝心
日子像旋转木马
在脑海里转不停
出现那些你对我好的场景

你说过牵了手就算约定
但亲爱的那并不是爱情
就像来不及许愿的流星
再怎麼美丽也只能是曾经

太美的承诺因為太年轻
但亲爱的那并不是爱情
就像是精灵住错了森林
那爱情错的很透明

那温热的牛奶瓶在我手中握紧
有你在的地方我总感觉很窝心
日子像旋转木马
在脑海里转不停
出现那些你对我好的场景

你说过牵了手就算约定
但亲爱的那并不是爱情
就像来不及许愿的流星
再怎麼美丽也只能是曾经

太美的承诺因為太年轻
但亲爱的那并不是爱情
就像是精灵住错了森林
那爱情错的很透明

太美的承诺因為太年轻
但亲爱的那并不是爱情
就像是精灵住错了森林
那爱情错的很透明

Hmm…
Don’t know how to start lei…
Too many thing to say just do not know how to express in words.
Hmm.. I guess I don’t start but I'll end here…

2 more week and I be through

NIGHTMARE!

Recently I had not been sleeping well, kept having nightmare. The nightmare that I had is not something which will wake you up in the middle of the night, but it something which makes you worried.

I guess I’m just getting too much stress from NS life.

Anyway, life as a Combat Engineers wasn’t as siong as what other might think. The present of Combat Engineers, is a lot less siong as compare to the pass. Nevertheless the discipline level is still very high. It so high that makes you think that you are still in BMT and not a trainees. No matter what I still have to go through 4 weeks which is 1 month of basic training term, then follow by 12 weeks of specializing. 4 weeks only ma. Can make it de.

Now I’m only left with 3 weeks, time will fly, endure and everything will end soon....

COMBAT ENGINEER,
WITH PRIDE I LEAD!
SISPEC!!

Wherever you are I'm still looking for you, so please do appear so in my life.
Brighten my life! I don’t want any more miserable life.

好想好想...

8 WEEKS; 2 MONTHS

Finally I had come to an end of my BSLC.

Guess what?

I had complete my 28KM Education March (???) and my Graduation parade.

Now, I'm being posted to Ngee Soon Camp, A.K.A a place for Combat Engineers.

OMG COMBAT ENGINEERS!!

Can you believe it, It another Siong Training for me.

Totally no comment for that but to accept the fate that my life in Army is always tough. It never being easy for me. All I could I hope or wish for, is to get into a welfare Company.

神阿救救我吧！给我快乐！我要快乐！