you should go out more often, 22 year old le...still staying at home...

like a kid...

you should go out make more friends...
-.-

HOW DO U NOE TT I WOULDN'T WANT TO GO OUT IF I HAF A CHOICE,

IT NOT I DUN WAN TO MAKE MORE FRIENDS, IT THEY DO NOT WAN ME AS A FRIEND

UNDERSTAND!!!

U STUPID OLD LADY!

WHY SO SERIOUS?

Run, Run~ Run!!!!!!!

choing ar~

oh-no~

I totally forgotten what I want to write...

I was full of thought throughout this week, thought of writing them all there...

But 我忘到完了...

hai....

Never mind, no matter what I should just stay happy!! :)

sleep sleep sleep..

all I know is sleep...

I should have been going out today....

But in the end I just slept once again...

Hopeless...I wonder...

When will I change or will I ever change?

It a weekend you know...

It another weekend burn...

If you wander off too far,

If you follow the wrong star,
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
If the bright lights blinds your eyes,
If your troubles break your stride,

If you ever feel ashamed,
When there’s only you to blame,
get back on your feet and think of me,

cos my love will get you home.

There are tons and tons of stuff in my mind.

Seriously, I do not know where to start.

Good, Bad, Kindness, Betrayal are all in my mind.

Nightmare seem to be getting more commons in my dreams.

Happiness are no longer existed.

How I wish, I wish...

I'm still looking for you,

where are you? Stop hidding,

will you please appear in my life,

soon?

Positive Feeling...
I always feel that I'm looking forward for something to happen…
Something which is good that will be going to happen in my life…
However, that is not always the truth as compare to what always has happen in my life…
So, what is the good feeling that I'm looking for?

I don't really feels, like what I usually feel it is..

IPPT: Silver

I got to seriously admit that I am getting old le...When I took my IPPT test, I'm kind of not being able to perform to the fullest. There seems to be some resistance that it pulling me back from doing so. I do not know what. It could be lack of training, I don't know. I can't jump as far as I used to for my SBJ. I can't run as fast as I used to for my shutter run. Chin-Up, doesn't improve much still the same. I aways feels that I can do more, but there is just some resistant that stop me from doing so. As for the 2.4km run, is the only station that I have improve on. Not very sure of the timing, but I could say that I have improve. From 11min 30+sec to 10min and don't know how many seconds. haha...Oop! Right after my IPPT I went back for my familiarization driving. God! My legs are aching man and that doesn't end my day. Part two was doing guard-duty. Not regimental but replacing someone. Kind of last minute thing. Up coming Monday I would be doing another duty. SIAN~~ Anyway after this coming Monday duty that would be the end of my this month duty. SHOIK! I guess that all I wants to say... BYE!!!!!!!

出 Stunt!!

Thinking... Recalling...

Suddenly I thought of those days back at tekong...One year ago, I was just newly posted to Sispec..Life has change since I have step into army...There are ups and downs period...No matter it Good or bad, time will still pass...Loving it, or simply just hate it, I still have to go throught...Now I'm just glad in about 7 more month I'll be going to ORD...7 more months

Book-out lor...but I ain't happy at all.
Bored, super bored, dam bored.
Recently, I have been watching channel 8 tv drama. A 9pm show called "Heart Of Greed's" which is also known as 溏心風暴 the chinese name for it. In this show whenever it is showing the part where the female actress name '常在心', while the male actor 'Afreld', their background music play will alway play this song called: "my love will get you home". It super nice (I have added the link so if you wants to hear it, just click the title of the song). There seem to have tons of identical thing that was shown in the show (if you happen to watch it) speaks the feel of what I am currently feeling now. Every since words, in addition, the female actress do look like the girl whom I like.
Sad, less than an hour time I'll be book-in again. Guard-duty! WAH~~~

When she's in a bad mood, I can't even help to make her happy...

I tried many ways to think but I just can't think of ways to help her...

Feel very bad, Confuse, 心情乱七八糟...

What should I do?

Finally OFF day...

Haha... Tired, damm tired..

Stupid AOH really shag me up.

Throughout this OpenHouse which last for about 4 days and we had work for three week. In these three shit week is all about moving props, rubber tire or rim for salon vehicle, collecting ration and all kind of shit that no one could ever think of.

Super glad that it over... Everything is over.

Back to FLB's life.

Miss the morning run. Willie needs more long distance run.

Day after days... Night after nights... Week after weeks..
If you were to ask me, what is the feeling of doing the same thing over and over again...
I can tell you that, the feel would be the same. There wouldn't be any different.

On the 16 Aug, I finally completed my 21KM Half Army Marathon Run.I completed in 2hr and 16min, if I were to complete within 2hr 15min I would get 2days off. Wah! sad sia.. Don't care I must try to convince my PC to get my 2day off... Wahahaha....

On the 27 Aug, I had my ATP. Cheese-Bun, during my practice. I got 26 out of 36, 2 point away from marksman badges and 200dollar. On the actual day, I failed. Wah! Can you believe it? All my figure 15 all I miss. Miss! Miss and more miss until I fail. Wah-liew. Suck thumb have to retake, result 25 of 36. Hai... Bo money, bo badge. Downn!!

Recently, Busy lo... everyday go PLC. All the endless Siakan. Hai...No wonder they say 3rd sergeant are first class man. I have to admit that that is sooo true... Suck thumb lor...

Hai... I wanna be happy...

我不是一定要你回来

只是当又把回忆翻开

除了你之外的空白

还有谁能来教我爱

Bad news, Bad news...
The Half Army Marathon, I will be doing my GUARD-DUTY. Sad all my effort has gone to the wasted. :'( All the await, All the plans. All gone, 彩虹消失在一瞬间. Huh! All my training. Really do not know what to say. Si Bei Sad ar... Just was talking about it to my buddy in the morning that what if it happens that either of us kanna guard-duty on that Half Army Marathon all the effort that we have put in, in our training will all gone to waste. Then right before we book-out we found that my buddy guard-duty was the day before me, while mine was on the dot the day that we are running the Half Army Marathon. haiz...... I guess in my life there will only be once that I'll be runnign in a marathon and now I can't even run. SAD!!!!!

14km? wad is 14 I have completed 16Km... Haha... I can't believe that I have completed 16Km. It was indeed a fun run, though the journey was dam long. Thought of giving up but I didn't. Haha.. (累不累~~ 作一场冒险的表演 走过千秋万岁　寂寞的云烟 下雨天　没有地点可以搁浅.) Can't really even see the finishing line but I still made it. Met quite a few old friends in the past courses we attended together. Haha... You can really see the shagginess in the face. Haha... Right after the run, I went for the free massage. I was indeed SHOIK AR!!. That stupid funny massager still ask how I get my leg tone until so nice. DOT!!! Have being running lei... Of course the leg will tone nicely lar... Stupid question. Anyway it was a fun run. I really enjoyed my run. Can't wait for the 21KM Half Army Marathon to come.

One year lor...

One year soldier lor...

100708, is the date I enlist...

100709, is the date that I will receive my pay and doing guard-duty till tomorrow morning...

wah-seh! What a coincident. I didn't even know it when I know that date of my guard-duty. 10 JULY, sounded so familiar. It kept making be to think about it. 10 JULY. what the hell happen on 10 JULY I kept thinking. Till my buddy told be about one year soldier. Then I know. To be truthful, I can't really believe that I have really been through one year of my life in army. OMG! In addition, today I also complete my very first 14KM run, the longest distance I ever run in my life. Timing still could manage is squeeze within 1hr 30min. Ha-ha... I know it slow lar.. Slow run man, I'm not siao on lei... Run like one crazy dogs. Next week it 16KM, die ar!! One year past, one year of memories in army. Willie, 10 more month to go, 10 more month to ORD!!!

-PAST-

-3rd SERGENT lor-

我爱谁 跨不过 从来也不觉得错
自以为 抓著痛 总会修成爱的果
偏执相信著 受诅咒的水晶球
阻挡可能心动的理由

而你却 靠近了 逼我们视线交错
原地不动 或向前走 突然在意这分钟
眼前荒沙弥漫了等候
耳边传来孱弱的呼救
追赶要我爱的不保留

我身骑白马 走三关
我改换素衣 过中原
放下西凉没人管
我一心只想王宝钏

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what?s waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

你的眼睛　蓝色的一面海
总是太安静　像是会有暴风雨
呼唤一个夏季　也许那天都逝去
海面闪着泪　像梦境

你的眼睛　闪烁的一面海
平静地叹息　洒了一片碎玻璃
穿过一座岛屿　也许那天都死去
海浪都沉默　累不累~

作一场冒险的表演
走过千秋万岁　寂寞的云烟
下雨天　没有地点可以搁浅
拍一张分别的纪念
努力远走高飞　失眠的海面 
地平线　彩虹消失在一瞬间


其实从头到尾　谁又得到了水仙
其实从头到尾　走了错误的航线
让海水都没去你我的脸　闭上眼
回到原点　一个语言两个世界

作一场冒险的表演
走过千秋万岁　寂寞的云烟
下雨天　没有地点可以搁浅
拍一张分别的纪念
努力远走高飞　失眠的海面
地平线　彩虹消失在一瞬间

你常常说 我很完美
没人能取代 我给的一切
我就以为 我努力更完美
我们 就会永远
完美并不美 我们多虚伪
你让我的好 变成一种罪
完美并不美 当你爱了谁
我的完美也只是 不完美

後来你说 我太完美
值得更好的 陪在我身边
你不是我 你怎么能体会
你有 多么珍贵
完美并不美 我们多虚伪
你让我的好 变成一种罪
完美并不美 当你爱了谁
我的完美也只是 不完美

完美并不美 我们多虚伪
你让我的好 变成一种罪
完美并不美 当你爱了谁
我的完美成了罪

完美并不美 我们多虚伪
你让我的好 变成一种罪
完美并不美 当你爱了谁
我的完美也只是 不完美

我要快乐。。。

Yoz yoz yoz...
What have I being doing man, you might ask.
Training lor...I guess..
More and more responsibility are coming in. It like a never ending stories.
I wonder if I could cope. Yes I can, trying to be positive.
Being the best out of the worst is the best I can do.
The facts is that I am alway being the worst, maybe all I can do is at least try to be the best out of the worst.
DO MY BEST!

whenever these song is being played over the air.
it always reminds me of you.


would it be good if we were to remain as friend?
or
a one step forward as a couple?


do I really need you like just like the superman who need the sun to survive?
it has been days we have not being contacting each other.
what is happening between us ?
will there be a day that you will ever think of me?
I wonder...

If there a day..

just that particular day that you will think of me..

you really got to tell me..

I guess, today will be the day that I will never forget...

Finally..I pass my TP...wooootttt....

I thought I would have fail, but I didn't. I made it through. WOW!

Willie Bolei! Willie Bolei!

You all won't know how down I was yesterday, but today. SA-KA-LIAO

Saturday is my Island-Wide, die.

Need to hit 100KM for both rover and tonner.

Which mean I have to drive for hours and hours.

OMG!!!

Guess guess guess...

Guess who I met today...

Chio-bu lei...

lolx... It someone who I know...

Has been a while I didn see her...

But who know that I met her.... wooott...

POP loh.. 250209
haha...

Finally this days really comes.
Training for the parade was siong ar... Image that you trained in the rain and you got tan. Weird right? This show that how strong the UV rays are. What makes it worst is it rain dueing our actual parade. Wah liew ai... Luckily it stop just right before the time when my parent can come forward to put on the chevrons for me. haha.. What make the parade a memorable was the rainbow that we right behind of us. Cool right. OMG! It not only one but two lehx... haha...

There are some of the photo enjoy sorry about the two rainbow it not inside pity right haha...

It has been a while that I did not go out with my poly friend.
But today, I went out with them to celebrate Farah's birthday. There are Nurul, Fariz, HuiWen, Farah cousins, sister and her some other friends. I'm kinda stupid, didn't know that it a surprise party for Farah and I say Hi to her. which i suppose not to. We went to Minds Cafe, have a little touch up on what are they doing. It is mend to be fun but it turn out to be kind of boring because most of them are Malay and only me and HuiWen are the only Chinese, the rest of the Chinese all have their stupid reason for not attending... -.- What makes it worst was Fariz and Nurul, they are no longer couple. They are back to friend friend kind of relationship. Just happens that me and HuiWen are between them. So it normal that we will feel kinda of weird in between them, so we just start chatting with each other. SAD. They used to be a lovely couple, but then they do not have time to spent with each other, things change. So is it true that when guys are going into NS, it better not to be involve in relationship? After the celebration Me and HuiWen took a ride home together, don't think too far. We are going home together is because we are staying quite close to each other so we are going home together and not I'm sending her home, wrong thinking lei... But being truthful, I alway feel that after chatting with her, I felt happier then usual. Maybe it because I have someone whom I can share my life with. I really hope we could have more, as a friend to friend chats. :)

Time really flies...
Course finally come to an end, so happy. Haha...
This week was one of the most siong week in FLB(Fun Loving Boys).
Construction, camouflage, deployment really is a pain. Nevertheless I glad that I have made it through. All thank to all my pioneer. I couldn't have done well without you guys, Thank you guys. Up coming weeks I would be going back to ETI then driving school. No worry, I'll be back at around May, and once again I'll bring joy to you all. haha...
With pride I will lead.

海的思念绵延不绝
终于和天在地平线交会
爱如果走得够远
应该也会跟幸福相见

承诺常常很像蝴蝶
美丽的飞盘旋然后不见
但我相信你给我的誓言
就像一定会来的春天

我始终带着你爱的微笑
一路上寻找我遗失的美好
不小心当泪滑过嘴角
就用你握过的手抹掉

再多的风景也从不停靠
只一心寻找我遗失的美好
有的人说不清哪里好
但就是谁都替代不了

在最开始的那一秒有些事早已经注定要到老
虽然命运爱开玩笑真心会和真心遇到

Is anyone enjoying in army? I doubt so.
Nobody likes to talk about army once they enter in the army, but still their conversation are all about army. Trying to hide, trying to giving lot of excuses, trying to make himself happy, but in his heart, he knows whatever he think was a liar to himself.

Yesterday, I went back to RP, for the Chingay performance at night, didn't get a chance to go on Friday, because my book-out timing was too late. Sad. Tons of thing did happen in my club, could see that my junior are changing, they are growing up, almost all found their partners but for the rest who don't. JiaYou lei. You guys will find one soon, too... Could see that there are improvement in their performance. Anyway, during the Chingay performance I got a very bad injury. Now, all the joints that I have, are have cracking sounds. Even with a small movement a crack sound can be hear. Especially my right shoulder, it hurt. God this coming weeks I'm going to have my SOC test. How I am going to pass. (ZZZZZ) Should I go see the MO? (hmmm...) Sian... this coming Saturday I would be having my gaurd duty. Which mean I cannot enjoy my weekends. :( Haiyo! sian sian sian! It ok, it alright, two more weeks and one day, it would be the end of my specializing phrase. Here comes my class 3, 4, & 5. YEAH!

MISTAKE,
I make tons of mistake,
So many that I can't even account for it,
There are time where I fall,
I did manage to pull myself through,
And I did learn from my mistake,
But how long can I last?
I don't know...

下一個雨帶 夏天傍晚 我都毀虧 唱歌的踹 嘿
把心情都吵醒 月光甩啦很涼快 就是這樣回憶起來
第一次告白 You gotta wall I can

我裝了很這些等你機械 很可愛 你說活在明天活在期待
不如活著今天的人在 我說我懂了楔ㄦ太快
未來你一定要展開 第一天我存在 第一次呼吸暢快

站在地上的腳踝 因為你而有真實感 第一天我存在
第一次浪漫去愛 愛是騰空的魔幻 第一天的純真色彩
它總是永遠那麼燦爛

你很搞笑你很奇怪 你頭髮很亂 有的時候
你突楓飢琲漕 變得很勇敢 怎麼說來很不單純

你陪我看海 還那麼來 我又好像 不應該把你想得有點壞
壞的是我發現不知不覺 不見到你不是很習慣
你的眼神裡好像也期待 期待不一樣的未來

第一天我存在 第一次呼吸暢快 站在地上的腳踝
因為你而有真實感 第一天我存在 第一次浪漫去愛

愛是騰空的魔幻 第一天的純真色彩 它總是永遠那麼燦爛
藍色的海 海上的魚 應了那段 不轉彎 那未來

你說活在明天活在期待 不如活在今天的自在
我說我懂了楔ㄦ太快 未來你一定要展開

第一天我存在 第一次呼吸暢快 站在地上的腳踝
因為你而有真實感 第一天我存在 第一次浪漫去愛
愛是騰空的魔幻 第一天的純真色彩 它總是永遠那麼燦爛

永遠那麼燦爛 永遠那麼燦爛
First day first day
First day first day
First day
Today every day first day

约定

说好的三年不见面用我们的爱把时间留住
你笑着说这是我们的考验我们的约定
就这样三年又过了我还是回到这个地方
闭上眼等你的出现，空气中吻你的脸
我还记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了
我还记得我们那时的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
连那风都笑我了
我想他会告诉你的我更爱你了。。
你会记得我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
听着风我也笑了
他一定会告诉你的我更爱你了。。。。

what is your, it is your

what is not your, it is not your...

so it better not to think of ways to get it...

Days in FLB still remain unchanged. I still don't seem to be remembering thing. Even my personal stuff. Aiyo! 失败! lehx! God!
Weekends are changing, from going out to staying at home. My parent keep enforcing, and wants me to go out. Meet up with friend, get a life. But all I can think of is after one week of constructing both my mind and body so tired that all I wan is to stay at home. Watch TV, cartoons will be good, play game or some other thing. There are just too many thing that I had plan to do at home are still undone and has been postpone to another week, if this goes on it will never end. Staying at home isn't boring, it "休息是为了走根长的路". LOLx... Chim ritez! I learn it from a friend of mine. Ha-ha... Get a life, I'll try. Upcoming week of construction would be at the transit gap, in addition I'm the IC of the week OMG, more stress is coming in. But, I have rest enough and I'm ready for it, just bring it man.

I dreamt of u again,

lying down on my shoulder,

hugging my arms.

R u the one?

Or it just only a dream

My Own shadow

Today was a memorable day, I thought that I shouldn't be going there because there someone whom I used to love was there. Sounded abit childish, butthis is how I feel. I never ever told this to her before, as I thought a guys like me, does not suit her at all. In the past, our friend like to make fun of us. Saying we are like couple the thing that we do the place we go, we are always togther, there are other friend around us, but it appear that we look like couple. How I wish that she is my GF but she's not. There is also once that she was so angry that she scolded the person whom was making fun of us, she spoke out loud that we are impossible. I was glad that I did not spoke out that I like her. If not I would have hurt more. That was like about two year ago, and we have kept a distance from each other. Today, one of her friend made fun of her once again... She didn't reacted much but I was worried that her got angry so I took one step back, so as to create a misunderstanding. And now I'm at home I wathing this show. It happen that the story line was just like mine. OMG, but the ending is different lar... haha...
hmmm....
Now I'm just thinking.... and kinda worried...
Should I or Shouldn't I?

010109

The first day of the year, I'm spending it not doing anything, but doing guard duties. Might sound quite sian 1/2... but it regimental so bo bian lar...
To be truthful, this guard duty that I have was quite interesting. My prodding was at 12pm hot sun, god really this really can kill someone man. It not tiring, but I’m just being exhausted by the heat. Next duty was after dinner, my buddy and I walk so fast just to rush back watch 心花朵朵开 and we did made it just in time. Lolx. Midnight duty was the most interesting, I got chase by three dogs during my duty. Wooott.. No worry, my buddy and I weren’t hurt. How did it happen, I also don't know. It just happens very fast, I was just only thinking about would I encounter/chase/attack by a dog and then it just happen. Not One but three dogs. My buddy and I were walking toward our checkpoint, sudden we heard dog barking. Initially, I thought there are only two dogs which were like just playing and chasing each other so we don't intend to disturb. However, they are not, they are running toward our direction. And these two dogs are calling for backup. From two and now it becomes three. OMG!! During that point of time all we could think of is, don’t run, stand still and nothing will happen, and we did. The dogs did come to a hault but it was just right beside my buddy and it keeps barking and barking. We do not know what to do, maybe if we turn around and walk away from it, it would stop. As when we turn around and walk away it run toward us again. Dotz! The whole area was cover by all the barking so it decide to carm them down by just doing shhh.. and shhh... It works. Not only it succeeds, the dogs turn and run away. WHAO! Amazing! Haha! We reported back and inform the guard com. that we are unable to get to the checkpoint. We were told to skip the checkpoint and carry on. Yeah! Lolx! The following day, my duty was to check the vehicles from entering the camp. Got scolded for no reason by the drive, but I am just too tired to care about him. haha~! Dam shag!
Fatigued level: 90%

Brain functioning level: 10%

Overall: 100%(cannot work and think)

LOLX

What a new year to start with...

What an experience

New year Resolutions is to get a GF. ;)