This time it super duper strong, I seriously wanna kill myself. I really don't know why am I so stupid. I'm slowly breaking down this time. I really don't understand why? Why can't I score well/perform well. It something which I know but I just can't remember during that point of time. WHY??? Luckily for this time I still can control, I still can manage my feel but I don't know if I'm able to do it for the next time.
Would there be anyone who can save me?
Should I go for counseling before it get worst?
I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY